The Obsidian Mirror
Sierra Carter opened her eyes. She was confused. Surely, she shouldn’t be staring at the ceiling? She was looking up at the ceiling without bending her neck backwards, so that meant…she was lying down. With her head in someone’s warm lap. A person’s face swam into her field of vision, upside down and out of focus, and she pulled her head hastily out of the lap and scrambled to her knees.
The lap belonged to a slender yet well-muscled young man who looked as though he might be Latino, with ruddy brown skin and black hair falling into his face. He wore a bright, beaded necklace. His mouth seemed too wide for his rather long face, and his full lips turned up at the corners, making him look as though he were smiling when he was not. Although his features were all slightly odd, like a character sketch where the artist exaggerates for effect, they melded together into an offbeat beauty. He did not have the dark eyes of a Latino, though; his eyes were a bright, feral amber.
He looked at Sierra with concern, frowning slightly. “Are you all right?” he asked. “How do you feel?”
Sierra stared at him, feeling as though she had wandered into some alternate universe. Apparently, she had fainted—a first for her. And just before she had fainted, what had she been doing? Oh, yes. She had been talking to a coyote…
It took several long moments for it to sink in; she had just been fired. Sierra Carter sat quite still, staring at her manager across the neat stacks of paper on his desk. Mark Charbonneau gazed uncomfortably back at her, clearly wishing he were somewhere else. As she stared at Mark, Sierra’s thoughts spun around like a nightmare carousel. Round and round it whirled, to the tune of “Fired! Fired! Fired!”
Sierra couldn’t think of any reason she should be fired. She worked hard, she was smart, and she was extremely good at what she did, which was public relations. Since joining Black Diamond Semiconductor Corporation, she had successfully launched a number of products and increased media coverage by more than 20 percent. Almost single-handedly, Sierra had established Black Diamond’s proprietary silicon blend as a superior semiconducting material that generated far less heat than conventional materials. She had the facts and figures to prove her achievements on behalf of the corporation. How could they fire her? She wished the carousel in her head would stop spinning to its crazy tune; it made it so hard to think clearly.
Sierra stirred restlessly, and Mark looked even more nervous. He glanced at the box of tissues on his desk (carefully placed there just for the occasion, Sierra thought). He cleared his throat.
“I’m really very sorry,” he said. “You shouldn’t view this as being fired, you know.”
Oh, yeah? Sierra snarled silently. What would you call it?
“It’s really a layoff,’ Mark continued. He was a bland, forty-something man with light brown, thinning hair. He wore dark suits with striped ties Monday through Thursday, and on casual Fridays wore jeans that had been ironed, leaving a sharp crease running the length of each indigo leg.
“There’s been a cutback, you know, and Jenna’s making a 10 percent cut across the whole company. It’s not personal, Sierra,” Mark elaborated. Jenna Simmons was president of Black Diamond Semiconductor. Tough, petite, and photogenic, she was a darling of Wall Street. Rumor had it that Simmons was looking for a political appointment in the next administration. The news portrayed her hobnobbing with the top brass, sponsoring fund-raisers, and having her photo taken with the rich and powerful. Sierra had been responsible for getting some of Jenna’s coverage in the newspapers and on television. But Jenna’s ubiquitous presence on the Internet was largely due to Jenna herself; she was a relentless blogger, Twitterer, Yelper, YouTuber and Facebooker, and she never allowed her staff to “front” for her online presence.
“No, I didn’t know that,” Sierra commented, trying to sound cool and calm. “So was this your decision or Jenna’s?” She was only faintly interested, still trying to recover her equilibrium. But Mark visibly tensed at her question.
“That doesn’t matter, Sierra,” he said. “”But there are a few things that we do need to discuss…”
Sierra listened to Mark talk about severance packages and COBRA and outplacement services, but she barely paid attention. Her heart was racing as swiftly as her brain, trying to make sense of this new personal landscape. I will not cry, she told herself. I will walk out of here with dignity, and then I will find a better job. She forced herself to listen to Mark.
“…a security guard is on his way to walk you out of the building. Standard procedure. Please wait for him.”
Sierra looked at him in disbelief. “You’re going to walk me out of the building under guard?” she asked. This fresh humiliation threatened to breach her precarious calm. She could feel her ears and cheeks burning.
“Really, Sierra, it’s just standard operating procedure,” Mark said. “I’m sending a security officer to escort you. He’ll help you clean out your office.” He handed her a sheaf of papers. “Take this. You can read and sign them later and return them by mail.”
Sierra grabbed the papers without glancing at them and stood up. Taking a deep breath to steady herself, she headed for the door of Mark’s office.
“Please wait for Clancy to come and escort you, Sierra,’ Mark said, with an air of disapproval. He steepled the tips of his fingers together as he spoke.
So the security officer in charge of her disgrace was Clancy Forrester. Perfect. She had liked the chief of security’s rangy good looks and had flirted with him on occasion during the four years she had been at BDSC. It had never gone beyond good-natured banter and a few warm glances, but she was still interested. He was intelligent, and they shared a love of nature and outdoor activities. Of course, that was all academic, given the present circumstances. If Clancy hadn’t wanted to date a colleague, he surely wouldn’t be interested in dating a colleague who had been ignominiously fired and perp-walked out of the building.
“I’ll be in my cage––I mean cubicle. Tell him to come get me there.” Sierra walked out, head high, heart quailing. She went back to her desk and shut down the computer. It was tempting to delete her files out of spite, but she resisted. She dug around fruitlessly for a box or bag to carry her few personal possessions. BDSC discouraged the decoration of office space with personal trinkets, but she did have some of her own reference books, hand lotion, a photo of her old cat Silver (now deceased), a small pothos plant in a striped pot, and other odds and ends. She piled these things together on her desk, wondering how she was going to carry them out to her car. She frowned fiercely at her small collection of possessions as if they were personally responsible for the situation. If she had realized that she was frowning, she would have hastily smoothed it away. She’d begun to notice a few lines beginning to gently score her face, tanned from many hours spent hiking and camping. Sierra had a spatter of freckles across her nose and cheeks, inherited from an Irish ancestor, straight, blue-black hair from some long-ago Indian forebear, and warm hazel eyes that spoke of the harmonious coming-together of all the different people who had eventually produced her.
After a few moments of listening to the chorus of “Fired! Fired!” still playing in her head, Sierra dialed the extension of her best friend, who worked at BDSC as a marketing manager.
“Kaylee Shore,” said the voice on the other end of the line, rich and warm, like chocolate mousse.
“Hey, it’s Sierra.”
“Hi, Sierra! Wanna go out and get a couple of drinks? I’m fried for today.”
“Yeah. Actually, I would. I just got fired.” Sierra wondered if that would put her on the persona non grata list with Kaylee. Work friends are sometimes like that, she thought, cringing. There was a moment of silence as Kaylee took this in.
“No way,” she said, finally.
“Way,” Sierra said. “I’ll meet you at, uh, where do you want to meet? I have to wait for the security guard to walk me out of the building. You know, that really frosts me. It’s public humiliation on top of getting canned.”
“Yeah,” said Kaylee. “Look, I’ll meet you at The Lion and Compass. I’ll go now. Just get there when you can.” The Lion and Compass was a favorite watering hole for Silicon Valley’s elite and charged accordingly.
“Mmmm, I just got fired, Kaylee. Maybe I ought to be watching my pennies.”
“My treat,” said Kaylee. “I like the bar there, and you meet a better quality of man. When you actually meet a man,” she added a bit wistfully.
“OK. Thanks. See you there.”
Sierra set the phone down and sighed. She suddenly wished she had spent more time making friends and less time trying to climb the corporate ladder. Her ladder had just evaporated in a puff of smoke, and she had more acquaintances than actual friends, she reflected.
A soft throat-clearing made her look up. A man in the security uniform of Black Diamond Semiconductor stood in the entrance of Sierra’s former cubicle. Clancy looked as uncomfortable as she felt.
“Hi, Clancy,” she said.
“Hi, Sierra,” said Clancy, shifting his six foot-plus frame awkwardly. “I’m here to…help you get your things together.” She noticed for the first time that he was holding a cardboard box. She felt a sudden surge of gratitude for his thoughtfulness, which she squelched viciously. Dumb broad, she told herself. Good-looking guy does some minor nice thing, and suddenly he’s a hero.
Aloud, she said, “Thank you, Clancy. I can use the help.” She took the box and began filling it with her small collection of personal things. Clancy said softly, “Are you OK? What’s going on?”
“Well, I am actually not OK,” Sierra said, with more bitterness than she had intended. “Mark says there’s a 10 percent layoff, and apparently I’m expendable.” She shoved a leather-covered notebook, gold-stamped with the Black Diamond logo, into the box, then reconsidered and flung it into the trash. She missed Clancy’s look of confusion at her words. He said nothing, but helped pack the rest of Sierra’s belongings and picked up the box.
They walked through the warren of cubicles and took the elevator to the ground floor. Sierra flushed as other employees either stared at her or averted their eyes. All the way through the marble and glass lobby, down the sweeping front steps of the main building, around the splashing fountain, out to her car (parked in the hinterlands designated for lowly employees who did not have reserved parking places), Sierra kept wishing she could say something to Clancy about how she really had been doing a good job, that she had improved BDSC’s media coverage by a huge percentage, that she hadn’t been fired because she had done anything wrong. But there was no way to do this without sounding desperate and defensive, so she kept up a line of merry repartee, wondering where her wit had been hiding all her life until this moment. Clancy smiled and laughed once or twice, but didn’t say much. When they reached her car, he deposited the box in her trunk, closed it and turned his jade-green eyes to hers, causing a slight frisson to march down Sierra’s spine, despite her anxieties. He said, “Well, Sierra, I guess this is it. Good luck.” He held out his hand. And she shook it. He had a warm, firm grip.
“Thanks,” she said. He gave her another smile and walked back to the building.
“And that is that,” she said quietly and opened the car door.
Sierra drove straight from the BDSC parking lot to The Lion and Compass. It was Friday afternoon, so the parking lot was jammed full of Beamers, Mercedes, and other high-end luxury cars. She pulled up to the valet parking stand and surrendered her slightly dented Ford, took a ticket from the valet and headed in.
Kaylee’s dark, close-cropped head was easy to spot, as she was easily the tallest woman in the room. She was in the midst of an animated conversation with another woman, and her huge gold hoop earrings were swinging as she gestured and nodded. As usual, Kaylee was wearing a distinctive necklace, a red-orange stone carved into the shape of a heart, hung from a string of amber beads—colors that were set off beautifully by her warm brown skin. When she saw Sierra, she excused herself and steamed over, somehow managing to exude righteous indignation. She threw her arms around Sierra and hugged her fiercely.
“You poor thing! What a crappy thing to happen! Did Mark say why?”
Sierra killed a few moments by waving a waitperson over and ordering a glass of Amador County zinfandel.
“Yeah, he told me,” she finally said. “He said there was a ten-percent layoff across the board. I just happened to be 10 percent of Marketing, I guess.”
“This is the first I’ve heard of a layoff,” Kaylee said, frowning. They were leaning across the table towards each other in an effort to hear over the Friday evening babble in the restaurant’s bar. “I haven’t heard of anyone else being let go. That doesn’t sound right.”
“He said it was a layoff. And they’re giving me a severance package,” Sierra said. “It’s actually a really nice package. Mark specifically said it wasn’t a performance issue and it wasn’t personal.” Her voice held the slight upward swing of a question.
Kaylee sipped her wine and thought for a moment. Her brows knitted in puzzlement. “You know, I did hear something, but I didn’t think too much about it at the time. I wonder if it’s connected somehow.”
“What?” Sierra asked impatiently. “What did you hear?”
“About BDSC hiring an outside agency. Is that something you knew about? I assumed you did, being in PR. I didn’t pay too much attention at the time.”
“Agency? You mean, a public relations agency?” Sierra asked incredulously. Kaylee nodded, earrings flying. Sierra went on, “I haven’t heard a word about it. Why would they hire an outside agency? It’ll cost them a ton of money—way more than they were paying me. That just doesn’t make sense!”
Kaylee spread her hands out and shrugged. “Sorry, doll. That’s what I heard.”
“You don’t happen to remember the name of the agency, do you?” Sierra queried.
Kaylee shook her head. “Nope. I can find out, though.”
Sierra slumped back into her seat. “Yeah. I don’t suppose it matters, but I’d like to find out. I worked for an agency before I came to BDSC, you know. I know a lot about the agencies that handle high tech.”
“You’ve mentioned that before. Called Rapper, or something? I gathered you didn’t like it much.”
“It was called Clapper & Associates. Jack Clapper was the principal. He was pretty successful but decided that to play with the big boys, he had to move the agency to New York. Silicon Valley wasn’t good enough.” Sierra stared moodily at her garnet-dark wine.
“But you didn’t go?”
“No. I was really uncomfortable with Clapper’s business dealings. I thought he was sleazy, and I know he charged clients for more than they were getting. I didn’t like a lot of the clients, for that matter—I was working on some pretty innocent things like disk drives and semiconductors, but a few of the other clients looked like fronts to me. I didn’t want to move to New York anyway.” Sierra sighed, and sipped her wine. It was redolent of wild berries and tasted of summer nights, but she didn’t notice.
“What do you mean by ‘fronts’?” Kaylee asked. “Like, money laundering?”
“Maybe. I never found out. Clapper fired me. That’s two for two. I’m beginning to feel like an albatross,” Sierra concluded gloomily.
“Why’d he fire you? I’ve seen you in action, and that just doesn’t make sense to me,” Kaylee said, a frown bisecting the dark wings of her brow.
Sierra sat and thought. Finally, she said, “You know, I’m not really sure. He told me that I just wasn’t needed in New York, but he took several other people with him who were willing to move. He’s a secretive kind of guy. I asked a lot of questions, and he clearly didn’t like it. If he really was up to something—if some of the clients weren’t legit—maybe he thought I’d expose him or report him—or something.” She shifted in her seat and sighed again. “I wasn’t actually sorry to leave the agency. But I am sorry about BDSC. I liked my job. Mostly.”
Kaylee patted her hand. “I’ll miss you, girl. We’ll need to get together more, now that we won’t be seeing each other every day.”
“I’ll miss you, too,” Sierra said, feeling a bit awkward. “We can still stay in touch.” But she didn’t quite believe it. In Sierra’s experience, people in Silicon Valley were too busy to make friends outside of work. She knew people with spouses and children, but because they were always at work, she wondered how much family life they could possibly be enjoying.
“So, have you thought about what you’re going to do now?” asked Kaylee.
“Erm, no. Not really. I’m still in a state of shock over the whole thing. Find another job, I suppose.”
“Well, I’ll give you a great reference,” Kaylee said. “I thought you did a wonderful job on the XLP-1099 launch. And I enjoyed working with you, too.”
Sierra looked at Kaylee with gratitude. “Thank you,” she said. “You have no idea how much that means to me right now.” She raised her glass. “Here’s to a new and better job!” They clinked their glasses together and sipped.
Kaylee and Sierra talked intensely for a long time, oblivious to the chatter and bustle of the busy restaurant. They talked about everything but work. Sierra realized that in the past, their friendship had been based on their common experience of working at BDSC. Their conversations usually focused on BDSC, the people with whom they worked, the semiconductor business. Now she was discovering that she and Kaylee shared many interests––a love of nature and hiking especially, although Kaylee thought that camping was going too far. Bathroom facilities that included hot showers and excluded quantities of biting insects were one of life’s fundamental requirements, as far as Kaylee was concerned. Sierra, whose mother had died when she was quite young, discovered that her friend had also lost a parent when she was a child. In Kaylee’s case, it was her father, and her mother had raised three children alone.
Eventually, Sierra said, “I think I’d better go home now.” Kaylee, who had settled in for the evening, looked surprised.
“Well, OK. Are you all right to drive?” she asked.
Sierra considered this question carefully. “Yup. But if I stay here, I am most definitely not going to be all right to drive. So I’d better go.”
Kaylee hugged her when Sierra arose from her seat “You take care, OK? Call me.”
“OK!” Sierra caroled as she walked out, twiddling her fingers at Kaylee as she left. A warm, zinfandel-tinted cloud seemed to surround her, keeping the nasty facts of her situation at bay. She retrieved her car from valet parking and headed home. She avoided the freeway, sticking to surface streets, and drove as sedately as possible. As she drove, the warmth of her encounter with Kaylee began to fade, and the many possible consequences of being fired started to clamor for her attention. By the time she reached her townhouse, the pink cloud had dissipated. She missed it.
Sierra lived in a townhouse near downtown Sunnyvale. The commute to and from work was quick. It was also close to the commuter railroad that went from San Jose to San Francisco. She loved taking the train to San Francisco on weekends, roaming around the city by bus, tram and cable car. She even loved the sound of the trains at night. The wail of the horn, the thrumming of the tracks, seemed like a call to adventure as she lay in bed waiting for sleep to come. No adventure had actually happened to her yet, but it was the promise, the possibility, that was exciting.
Sierra parked her car on the street in front of her townhouse. Because Sierra had turned her garage into her silversmithing workshop, her car and her garage had never been formally introduced. Leaving her box of possessions from the office in the trunk, she groped in her purse for the front door key. Her front door light turned on automatically as she approached, illuminating something lying on the doormat.
Sierra blinked down at it, at first thinking that it was a dead bird. She received such tributes on a regular basis from the neighbor’s cat. But it was only a single, large feather. It was a brilliant blue-green and seemed to sparkle in the lamplight. As Sierra bent to pick it up, she heard a chime, like the note of a crystal bell, struck once, shimmering on the warm air. But when she straightened up, feather in her hand, the sound dissipated. She shook her head, unlocked the door, and went in, tucking the sparkling feather into her purse.
When Sierra unlocked the door, there was a moment of anticipation, as she expected a greeting from her ancient tabby cat, Silver. And a moment of sorrow as she recalled that Silver’s ashes currently resided in a pottery jar on the mantelpiece. But she wasn’t ready for another pet—or the extra expense that went with pet ownership.
She sat down at the kitchen table and looked around her. The tidy kitchen with its granite counters and cobalt blue accents, usually a source of quiet pleasure, only reminded her that she needed to find another source of income to be able to pay the mortgage. She sat quietly in the darkening room. Her mind, like a stubborn moth against a windowpane, repeatedly battered itself against the question of “Why?” There surely had to be employees at BDSC who were less valuable and less productive than Sierra Carter.
Sierra wondered if it really was something personal. She had always wondered where she stood with Jenna Simmons. Sierra had been careful to get as much personal publicity for Jenna as she possibly could, knowing the woman’s appetite for the limelight. But Jenna, who displayed a beautiful grin and sparkling charm in front of a reporter and a camera, was an enigmatic personality when the world wasn’t watching. As outgoing and personable as Jenna seemed to the world, her eyes were always cold. They were odd eyes; most people with blue eyes had depth to them, with rings of darker color and tiny lines radiating out from the pupil like miniature sun flares. Jenna’s irises were a flat, cornflower blue, like the painted eyes of an antique doll. They conveyed no emotion, and Sierra—who was good at reading people—found Jenna impenetrable. Sierra had never known if Jenna was pleased with her performance or not—but as no one else seemed to know what Jenna was thinking, she had refused to fret about it.
Maybe this was all Jenna’s idea, Sierra thought. Jenna took advantage of this layoff to get rid of me. Personally. Does that even make sense?
Eventually, her mind wandered and Sierra found herself thinking about dinner. Her stomach rumbled, and she regretted not stopping for take-out food on the way home. Rummaging in the refrigerator, she found leftovers that weren’t discernibly moldy, heated the food in her microwave, and ate without tasting a thing.
After dinner, Sierra washed the few dishes she had used. Not in the mood for starting an online job search, she sat down again at the kitchen table, enveloped in gloom. Then she remembered the feather she had picked up on her doorstep. Eagerly grasping at something unconnected with BDSC, being fired, or finding another job, Sierra took the feather out of her purse and examined it more closely. It was about four inches long, and the greens and blues were intensely brilliant. The feather sparkled as she turned it in the light as though it were frosted with silver dust. She located a magnifying glass in her odds and ends drawer and looked closely at the fine barbs. Even under magnification, she couldn’t see what made it sparkle. She really didn’t know what to do with it, but it was too pretty to throw away. Finally, she took it upstairs to her bedroom and tucked the feather into a small, carved wooden box where she kept an assortment of random things she liked—colored rocks, a green glass frog, a ruby crystal drop from a chandelier that she had found in an junk shop.
Then she went to her garage workshop. The garage was full of storage boxes, tools and equipment, leaving no room for the car, which took its chances on the driveway outside. Sierra’s secret passion and ambition was to design and make jewelry for a living. As it was, she sold enough at art fairs and the occasional gallery to pay for tools and materials, but it was her public relations work that paid the mortgage. She never mentioned this particular ambition to anyone at BDSC. Anything less than the appearance of complete devotion to BDSC and all its works was decidedly career-limiting. She firmly believed that someday she would make the leap, but in the meantime she took courses in jewelry-making techniques, designed her pieces, and sold them when she could. At least I’m doing something about my dream, she often told herself. It’s not just wishful thinking.
Overnight, a small colony of wispy little spiders had constructed a web between her workbench and a bookcase where she kept her design journals and reference books. Sierra shooed the spiders away from the web and ruthlessly tore it away with a rag. She was sure the spiders were glaring at her from the sidelines as she destroyed their handiwork, but she told them firmly that they were lucky she didn’t squoosh them as well. Spiders gave her the willies, but she tried to avoid killing them, although she drew the line when it came to black widows in her house. Even the most dedicated arachnophile would kill a poisonous spider lurking in one’s lace unmentionables or the cereal cupboard.
Sierra pulled out a package of silver clay and opened it. Inside was a small gray lump that looked exactly like something dropped from a potter’s wheel. Sierra knew that when it was shaped and fired in her kiln, the gray clay would be transformed into pure, shining silver. It was easy and fun to work with, but she used it in her designs sparingly, as it was expensive. She rolled out a flat sheet of the clay. When she had a smooth, even surface, she pressed a small leaf firmly into the clay. Removing the leaf, she examined the impression critically. It was a clear, crisply textured copy of the original.
Humming to herself, she carefully removed the excess clay. She smoothed tiny flaws from its surface with a rubber tool, and put the leaf aside to dry. She planned to fire the leaf in her kiln and set it with garnets to look like berries. It would make an attractive pendant.
Once she set the leaf to dry, Sierra picked up a partially constructed bracelet. She previously had fabricated the settings from sheet silver and flat bezel wire and linked them together with jump rings, soldering the joint of each ring closed. The silver was dulled from the acid bath where she had placed the bracelet after soldering the pieces together. The heat of the torch had blackened the metal; the acid bath removed the black “firescale,” but it also dulled the surface.
Now she began to set the stones, each an irregularly shaped cabochon of turquoise. Using a bezel tool, she folded the silver bezels against each stone, testing the edge with her thumb to assure a good fit. Once the bezel lay smooth and tight against the stone, she burnished the edge until she could no longer feel the edge of the bezel against the stone. The work went quickly, with none of the problems that sometimes arose—too much bezel and not enough stone, or cracking a soldered joint. Each bezel folded sweetly against the turquoise, and the bracelet was soon finished, except for polishing—the final step. She dropped the bracelet into her polishing tumbler to await the next full load.
Sierra abruptly realized she had not thought about being fired once during the past hour or so. In fact, she was feeling distinctly better, for no good reason. It was getting close to her usual bedtime, but she certainly didn’t have to get up early, and she wasn’t tired. She cleaned up her workshop and returned to the kitchen. Feeling somewhat at loose ends, she poured a glass of wine and went to the living room to watch television.
“…against recycling, Mr. Fanshaw?” a sleekly groomed man was asking, peering earnestly into the camera and not at his interview subject. The scene shifted to a round-faced man with a disgruntled expression. With his pursed little lips and frowning brow, Sierra thought he looked like a large baby about to start a tantrum. A tag at the bottom of the screen read “Charles G. Fanshaw, Citizens Against Recycling.”
“It’s an outrage!” the round-faced man said, in an aggrieved tone. “I’m not going to separate my glass from my plastic and my paper from my metal. I’m not a garbage man! The whole idea is an imposition on a free people!”
The camera shifted back to the reporter. “But what about the landfill problem, Mr. Fanshaw? Or the masses of waste twice the size of the continental United States floating in the middle of the Pacific Ocean?”
Fanshaw sneered. “Have you ever seen this mass of waste in the Pacific Ocean?” He didn’t wait for an answer. “Of course you haven’t. You haven’t ever seen a unicorn or Santa Claus, either! Urban myth, that’s what it is…”
Sierra switched channels, shaking her head. Idiot, she thought. Acting like a baby just because he’s supposed to recycle his trash. I don’t know why I ever watch that channel, anyway. She found another news program and sat back to watch.
“…building several new nuclear power plants over the next five years.” The reporter was a dark-haired woman with enormous blue eyes, fringed with mascara-laden lashes. “We go now to Ted Rasmussen, who is speaking with a representative of the Department of Energy.” The scene changed to show a boyishly tousled young man with a microphone, standing next to a silver-haired man in a dark suit. “Ted Rasmussen here,“ said the young man. “We’re talking with Fred Channing, the DOE’s Assistant Undersecretary for Alternative Fuels. Mr. Channing, you were just saying that these new nuclear power plants will meet our country’s energy needs for decades to come?”
The camera full on him, Channing smiled, revealing gleaming white teeth. “That’s right, Ted!” he replied enthusiastically. “These power plants will free this great country from reliance on foreign oil. Nuclear power is clean, it’s cheap, and it’s safe. The President is very clear about the direction we need to take with energy in the future, Ted…”
Sierra addressed the television aloud, fuming. “What about the nuclear waste, which will be deadly for hundreds of thousands of years? What is wrong with these people? No one seems to be paying attention here. We’ve got a PROBLEM, and no one is doing anything!”
Realizing that watching the news was just adding to her anxiety level, she switched it off and went upstairs to bed. Lying awake in the dark, she tried not to think about getting fired. She tried not to think about looking for a new job. She tried not to think about continents of floating plastic, or about nuclear waste. She tried not to wonder why so many people didn’t seem to see what was happening right in front of their eyes, as the wild places of the earth vanished. She was not entirely successful, but eventually sleep claimed her.
Sierra dreamed about her mother, who had died eight years previously. They were walking together on the beach, and she could smell the salt spray and hear the roar of the waves. Instead of shells and dried-up kelp bladders strewn on the sand, there were treasures––carved stone boxes, mirrors set with jewels, swords with runes etched on their blades. Her mother said, “He sent you an invitation. Did you get it?”
“Invitation?” Sierra was puzzled. “No, I don’t think so. Who sent me an invitation?”
“You have to answer the invitation,” her mother said, patting her on the shoulder as she used to do and kissing Sierra’s cheek. “It’s the polite thing to do.”
“What invitation?” Sierra asked, confused. “Who…?”
But her mother had vanished. Sierra looked down at a green and blue feather in her hand and began to cry. But then she was typing at her computer in her cubicle at BDSC, and she received an email. The email said, “Everything is not what it seems. Or nothing is what it seems. Take your pick.”
But when she woke up, all Sierra remembered was the dream of walking with her mother on the beach, something they had done many times together, and she felt sad. She thought she should call her father soon. He lived in Los Angeles, nearly 500 miles away, and they didn’t see each other as often as she would like. He was retired now, but hated to travel, while she was always preoccupied with work. Yes, she must call him soon. But not to tell him she had been fired. She knew it would worry him.
Sierra washed her face and went through the rest of her morning ritual, which had the benefit of bringing her to full awareness, as she was not a morning person. She went downstairs and stuck bread into the toaster. She shuffled to the front door in her slippers to fetch the newspaper. Opening the door, she was startled to find herself face to face with a man who had just raised his hand to knock. This left him with his fist raised at about Sierra-nose-level, and she ducked instinctively. This maneuver brought her face-to-face with an extremely furry face with a long nose and bright, yellow-amber eyes. Sierra jumped back and moved the door defensively between her and the invaders.
“Oh, sorry, Ma’am,” said the man on her doorstep. “Are you Sierra Carter?” Sierra nodded, noting that he had called her “Ma’am” and not “Miss.” Men had shifted to calling her “Ma’am” a few years ago, and it never failed to annoy her. He was wearing Silicon Valley’s standard bright-young-engineer-going-to-work uniform: jeans, running shoes and polo shirt emblazoned with the graphics from his company’s latest product introduction. What made him distinctive was the fact that he was standing on her normally man-free doorstep, and that he had a largish coyote at the end of a stout rope. “I found your dog a couple of blocks away and thought I’d better bring him back to you.”
“I don’t have a dog,” Sierra said ungraciously. “And anyway, that’s a coyote. I’m surprised he hasn’t bitten your fingers off.” Amazingly, the coyote was sitting quite peacefully by the man’s side. It looked at her with bright eyes and wagged its tail. The wag looked a bit stiff, as though it had been practicing in a mirror.
“Arf,” said the coyote. It didn’t bark. It said, “Arf.” The man didn’t seem to notice this oddity.
“Look, lady, I don’t know what your deal is, but it has a tag with your name on it,” the man said. As he bent to pull the tag forward, Sierra saw that the coyote––was it a dog?––wore a beaded collar, woven with geometric patterns of red, black, yellow and blue that reminded her of Southwestern Indian work. She cautiously bent to inspect the engraving on the silver tag:
111 E. Mary St., Sunnyvale, CA
Stunned, she didn’t resist as the man thrust the rope into her hand. “OK, I gotta go to work now. You shouldn’t let your dog run loose like that. You’re welcome,” he added bitterly. He turned and strode away. The back of his polo shirt read, “It’s Not the Heat, It’s the Notion!” Another unsolved mystery.
Sierra looked at the animal, which stared back with interest. It was a coyote, no doubt about it––she had seen many of them when she went hiking in the hills. It was the size of a border collie, but with a wild, sharp, un-doggie face. Its fur was thick buff and gray with long, dark guard hairs and a slight ruff around the neck. It was slender, with pricked ears and those amazing bright amber eyes, so different from the warm brown eyes of most dogs.
The coyote stood up and walked calmly through Sierra’s open front door. Sierra followed it and shut the door behind her. Part of her mind was screaming that she had just allowed a large and probably dangerous animal into her house, while another part was explaining in a reasonable tone of voice that the coyote was clearly not vicious, it had a collar on––a very nice collar––and seemed well behaved.
Upon which, her brain screamed, “Why does it have a tag with my name on it?????”
No reasonable answer immediately occurred to her, so Sierra walked into the kitchen and rummaged in a cupboard to find a suitable water bowl, reasoning that if the coyote had been running around Sunnyvale, it was probably looking for food or water. The coyote followed close behind, which did not relieve her misgivings. As she looked for a bowl, it sat on its furry haunches and watched her attentively. She found a heavy stainless steel mixing bowl, filled it with water, and set it on the floor, near the sliding door that led into her back yard. She stepped back and eyed the animal. The coyote rose and walked over to the bowl, claws clicking on her tiled floor. It bent to lap the water once or twice, then lifted its head and stared at her again, drops of water falling from its muzzle. Sierra went to her home office and sat in front of her computer. The coyote followed her.
“Let’s see what Google can find on coyotes,” she said aloud to the coyote. She wished it would stop staring at her with those strange eyes. The eyes followed her every move, as though looking for the best place to start snacking, she thought.
Several minutes into her search, she hadn’t learned anything new about coyotes. The photographs confirmed that the beast sitting next to her was, beyond any shadow of doubt, a coyote. She did find a site dedicated to coyotes with an interesting question from one of the site’s visitors:
“My sister was driving near her home in Utah, and she found what she thought was a dog that had been hit by a car. She put it in the back seat and took it to a vet. The vet said it was a coyote, not a dog, but he fixed it up and she took it home. It seems very gentle and friendly, but I’m worried. Is it dangerous to keep a coyote as a pet?”
The answer was worrisome:
“It is not only dangerous, but illegal to keep a wild animal as a pet. Your sister should not have taken the coyote home. Coyotes are wild animals, and they are not safe to keep as pets. I strongly advise your sister to contact the local animal rescue people and have them relocate the coyote away from human habitation. Coyotes who become used to humans are the most dangerous, as they lose their natural fear of humans, and are likely to attack if they are threatened or think the person has food.”
Sierra did not share this observation with the coyote. It sat there, panting gently, eyes never straying from her. She pushed her chair back from the desk, and the animal leaped to its feet, giving her an adrenaline rush. Sweat broke out on her forehead.
Aloud, she said, “What on earth am I going to do with you?”
“Well,” said the coyote, displaying rows of white teeth that seemed sharper than they should be. “You could start by giving me breakfast.”